The pain that you've been feelin can't compare to the joy that's comin.

I really feel like I need to post the lyrics to this song. It's such a beautiful song, and it describes my situation so dead on it's scary.  The song is Before the Morning by Josh Wilson.  It's a christian song, and while I'm not the biggest fan of christian music....this song speaks to you....if you let it.

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,
before the morning,
yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning


I wanna thank God for the opportunity I was just given.  It was a opportunity to witness and actually put my faith into practice.  So thank you God for that epic opportunity.  I think one key factor about being a follower of Christ is that you be prepared to help others who come to you for help, whether they are believers or not.  I'm not saying you must be a biblical scholar lol, but if we can't come to eachother with problems and struggles throughout our walk then who else can we really go to? Well, other than God himself.  There will always be someone out there who has been where you've been and can provide input.  I know for myself at least, sometimes the pain eases up when I can just go talk to someone even if they have absolutely no advice to give.  Sometimes people don't want advice; they just want you to listen, and I mean not just hear them but really listen.  And sometimes it makes me feel better just to know that there's someone out there like myself who is going through or has gone through the same crap I have.  I think it's always helpful to see someones else's views and opinions on a topic.  
Today was a good day all around....I'm gonna try and enjoy what's left of senior year.  I really need to learn how to enjoy a moment and not constantly worry about the future.